I have been thinking a lot about what drives me. What motivates me to push forward with various responsibilities despite opposition? Is it simply because they are responsibilities or is there something deeper motivating me.
I think there is something deeper because I’m not driven to complete all my responsibilities. The trash piles up far too high before I take it out, the dog goes too long without being taken out. You get the idea.
What drives me to kill lust in my heart?
I think I am on a quest for identity. I want to be someone I am not. In many ways that is a biblical, gospel-centered quest. On the other hand, in many ways it is a pursuit of personal glory above God’s own glory.
I find myself asking, “Who is my ideal self?” Who will I be when I am finally perfected in heaven? Who do I want to be? Do those match up?
I haven’t answered these questions for myself entirely yet. I’ll be thinking about them a lot the next few days.
What about you? Do you know who your ideal self is? Is who you want to be and who God calls you to be the same thing?
What drives you to kill lust in your heart?